Wednesday, October 15, 2003

I am becoming bitter and resentful towards people that prevent me from being efficient. The nursing staff doesn't record the I&Os and then get pissy when you ask them for it nicely so I can't finish my notes until I get those in and so I get hounded as to why I don't know that info. Oh and this afternoon Andre and I had to sit around for an hour doing nothing while the residents and the brown nosing fourth year told stories until they let us leave. Um, I could have been home studying. And so that's what I'm going to do now. Oh wait, today I saw a hemorrhagic ovarian cyst removed by my attending and my OB/GYN doc. She couldn't tell it was me with my mask and goggles, and hat on but was told by someone who I was and said hi. Here's my problem, I think I would learn alot if she were my attending but as andre pointed out, she's seen more of me than any other attending I will have and then if I end up getting bitter and resentful towards anyone she works with, that could make it hard for me to then go see her as my doctor. By the way, my surgery attending seemed to think that I wasn't all that smart when he found out I only high passed last year's classes. what the hell. So now I'm paranoid about what my eval will be even though I don't want to be a surgeon.
~me~ at 3:01 PM